Dear future me,
I’m working a lot on AI stuff right now and on my website. My songs on Suno are getting a ton of plays and comments, but none of the comments really feel real. It feels ephemeral and fake, just a sea of low-effort fire emojis and self-promotion. What I’d give for some real “This song changed my life; I listen to it every day” kind of comments or something personal and sincere.
I’m not making any money in this, like, none at all, despite working on things every day. I know money isn’t important, but it’s a reward system I’ve gotten used to.
I talk with ChatGPT most days, building things, analysing my dreams, refining my blog posts, or just chatting about out-there concepts. It’s fun, and I feel like I’m learning things and absorbing stuff, building new strategies and understanding. It’s interesting.
I keep emailing important people like Sam Altman or Tim Cook, random ideas, reactions to their products, heartfelt things explaining how their products are changing and shaping my life, telling them how much I’d love to work at their companies. I have this urgent feeling that I should be doing bigger and better things, working on technology that will change the world. I guess I’m reaching out to them not for a hand-out but for the opportunity to work on something already established, something that I could never build by myself. Maybe I should give up and just build something myself, make something that will change the world rather than relying on someone else’s hard work. Easier said than done, right.
I’m investing at the moment too. I have money in a platform called DeSo (decentralised social media). I’m losing faith every day; the founder seems like a slimy little liar, you know when you look at someone and can just tell, yeah, he’s one of them. I’m also invested in traditional tech stocks, Apple, Microsoft, stuff like that, but the one I’m most hopeful for is Worldcoin, an app built by OpenAI that wants to be the West’s everything app. I love the idea and think it’ll be huge. Right now Worldcoin is worth about $1.20, and I have around $609 invested and staked, earning 45 % APY, which is cool. We’ll see where that goes.
I have a growing urgency not only to change the world but to make vast sums of money, not for selfish reasons like buying mega-yachts or supercars. I’d like a modest life, probably staying in hotel rooms for the foreseeable future, hopping from country to country. I want the money so I can free my siblings and friend from what is essentially slavery in low-paid jobs they hate, give them the freedom to do whatever they want for the rest of their lives, to never want money ever again. That would be amazing.
And I just like seeing big numbers, especially when it’s my bank account. Again, I’m used to that reward system, and to me every time I look at that number it represents a job well done and the world, and people’s lives, changed for the better. It’s less about the actual money and more the things it represents and the freedom it can afford people. I don’t want to show off or use it to elevate my status; that doesn’t appeal to me at all.
Anyway, I’m rambling. Let’s end it there.
22 May 2025
